falling...

i'm back after 2 weeks of ASLC.
no fun.
i hates it.
reason: i jus hates it.

i'm giving up CSB.
However,
Many things stills awaits me.
SOC, Fieldcamp, Grandslam 2, Steelheart
Quick att live, platoon live
Taiwan and finally CAT

Maybe some extras if Murphy's with me
Doubting my ability to go through all these.

Super demoralised
Super down
Super wet
Super cold
Super ITCH
OOC or OOC not?

Please advise as i duno wad to do.
Perhaps cpl is good enough for a slacker.
i seriously hate national service.
FUCK OFF!

on a lighter note,
Sorry to whoever that is covering my guard duty.
Seriously,
SORRY!

haiz.
no point blaming a fallen guy..
detotrioting...
listless...
restless...

ASLC ASLC!

alright.
Exercise long weekend gonna end in few hours time.
tml morning will be starting of ASLC le.
13 weeks!
mixed feelings now.
3 stripes or not, depends on this le.

somehow i aso surprise i am mapling right now.
hahaha.
damn bored.
but at least it kills time.

recently ppl are traveling around.
aunt and cousins just came back from japan ytd.
sis going melbourne next week.
I am so jealous.
haha.

oh well.
i guess i doesn't have a choice.
the next time travelling should be the exercise in taiwan le. -.-
nothing much to update le.
gonna sleep early.

goodnight!

boring day at coy line.

ok. suddenly got the urge to blog due to the fact that i am too bored. mind you, today is 17 of oct and it's a sat and i am still in camp. like it or not, i have to carry out the duty assigned. whatever is it, really is sit inside office do nothing. it's seems to be a blessing when i see fellow comrades coming back for guard duty. haha.

and btw, due to this duty, i'm unable to attend joyce's 21st bday party. sorry uh. =x

so the next morning book out and book in on the same day at night. -.- 12 hours of book out nia. sian. and next week will be the wonderer and grandslam liao. kinda worried and stress about it. wonder how it will turn out.

will i get my team and i lost? haha. shall see about it.
hope that everything goes well next week.
keeping my finger cross about it.

random: how i wish the australia trip never ends... haha.

itouch gone

Curse and swear that mother fucker who stolen or pick up my itouch and nv return.
hope you use le your ear rot, hand rot, screen spoil shock your to death!

KNN.
Spoilt my entire day.
CCB!

week without connections.

hohohoho.

coming monday will be field camp le.
6 days out in the field for the first time.
muddy, dirty, tiring.
thinking of that, kinda sian.

after field camp jiu relax le la.
hopefully next week wun rain.
keeping my fingers cross!

those who happen to read my blog,
help me pray that it wun rain too!
haha.

mental fucked. haha.

somehow or rather, i am appointed to be platoon IC
damn it. luckily it's all over la.
though is not that tough, i still dun like to be one.

i still prefer my slacker life. haha.

oh well, tml gonna book in like straight after lunch time.
wth. sian.
today aso din go out la.
wanna rest.

hopefully next week can be smooth too.
next platoon IC, GOOD LUCK UH!
hahahahaha.

22nd july last year,

22nd july this year,

how i wish you were still by me.

devastated.

book out as usual
but going in with a heavy mood.

i hate my life.
things just dun go the right way.
i cant put it down.
seriously, i just cant.

i am so useless.

first book out.

finally 2 weeks of confinement over le.

I'm out! at home currently!
oh well, kinda overjoyed when in the tunnel.

but reach home jiu normal le.
things just not as smooth as expected.
things just goes wrong.

but finally i found what i really wanted when i'm close to death.
i finally knew..

bye bye!

ok.

gonna sleep and tml will POOF!
botak. haha.

whatever la.

goodnight.
cya in 2 weeks time.

last day of civilian life.

ok. it's 12am.
officially today is the last day of my civilian life.
i have packed my stuffs alr.
i have done whatever i think i need to do.
but disappointing results.
i'm just nobody to you.

oh well. wadever.
you guys should be guessing where will i be going to enjoy or party?

haha. sorry to disappoint you all.
nah. i'm intending to stuck myself at home.
letting my phone rest.
making my mp3 and lappy work extra hard.

at the same time,
relax myself,
calm my feelings,
to achieve a peaceful state of mind.
prepare myself for the day. (:

moody.

it has been a long time since i last updated.

i guess nobody reads it nowadays.
somehow,
i have been getting more and more moody everyday i wake up.
i hate this world.
i detest this world.
for no reason.

i find talking to people are such a troublesome task to do.
i find entertaining others are such irritating task to do.
nobody really knows what i need.
nobody really knows what i wanted to do.
nobody really knows me.

whenever go out, i dun feel like talking much.
whenever dining, i dun feel like eating/drinking much.
whenever listen to mp3, i dun feel like listening to fast songs.
i have no reason for all these.
i myself dunno why too.

enlisting in like 1 week's time.
things needed have been prepared more and less.
but i'm not emotionally stable at all.
i cant sleep. tossing and turning all night.
keep thinking about her and stuffs.
woke up with half of the afternoon gone.

i told the whole world i'm fine without her.
i told the whole world she cant affect my live.
i told the whole world i dun love her.
i showed the whole world i can live without her.

yet i can't do it.
i'm not happy without her.
her actions and words are affecting me greatly,
just like fat man and little boy dropping in japan.
i still love her more than anything.
i can't see my smile without her.
i am a big fat LIER!

i'm feeling low, moody, listless.
use whatever u want to describe me.
i have no mood to do anything.
i felt like a living corpse.
no motivation, no purpose.

i've lose myself completely..
i rose my white flag..

13th april

First day without baby.

Omnia couple
Broke up. I felt terrible.
I felt as if i lost the entire world.
Everything seems meaningless.

I left my house.
I tried to escape from reality.
I travel.
All i thought is still you.

The stuffs we wanted to do tgt
All unfinished.
License, Our week, Ring.

I was unable to do anything with concentration.
Neither gaming, online, TV-ing nor Eating.
It was a terrible feeling.

I stared at my phone.
Hoping you will msg me.
Hoping a miracle will occur.

Disappointment.
You are in the mood of going K box tml.
Perhaps I am really insignificant.

BLOG CLOSED

BLOG CLOSED

Reason: I DUN FEEL LIKE blogging anymore.

BYE BYE!

SIAN again! guess what? more stuffs to be done!

sqm individual report 29 dec
crb field trip report 29 dec
ccom job ad 30 dec
napfa 30 dec

wah sian lo. all is due on the first week when sch reopens. zzz. super sian uh!

updates on schedule

BACK from school with more sad news uh. what do i mean uh.

IT MEANS MORE QUIZES. T-T

Updated schedule
Fri, 14th nov CCN day. COCONUTS up for grab!!
Sat, 15th nov Steamboat @ thomson
Mon, 17th nov SQM quiz 1 & DO MP slides
Tue/Wed, 18th & 19th nov DO MP report draft
Thu, 20th nov Keppel visit & peer tutorial
Fri, 21st nov MP report draft DUE
Mon, 24th nov MP trial (not comfirm)
Tue, 25th nov MSA quiz 1
Wed, 26th nov MP JUDGING
Thu, 27th nov Club and Resort Quiz 1

Super sian leh!!!
*FAINT*

Packed schedule

SIAN SIAN SIAN.

the following weeks will be stressful uh.

13rd nov, which is tml, MSA peer teaching. Hopefully the printing shop isn't crowded.
14th nov, CCN, Selling coconuts? lol. >.< Hopefully it's not gonna rain.
WEEKENDS ( SAT GONE, SUN STUDY!!)
17th nov, SQM quiz 1. haven even study! Hopefully my brain is still able to memorize.
WEEKDAYS ( THU GONE, TUE AFTERNOON AND WED DO DRAFT.)
21st nov, MP report first draft. haven even started. -.- Hopefully my brain juice flows.
WEEKENDS (SAT, SUN DO SLIDES)
WEEKDAYS ( MON, TUE EITHER 1 TRIAL WITH L/O)
26th nov, MP judging. Haven even started doing the slides and the trial with L/O haven do yet.

all planned out. Hopefully i din missed anything out. haiz. sian. 2008 isn't a good year.

How i wish time will stops on christmas day. den forever in christmas mood! =p

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ranting

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i am still super duper unhappy can? !!!!!

Slacker

Oh well, i know i have not been updating. so you guys have no entertainment uh. lol. simple reason for this, I AM LAZY! haha. and playing back old games such as gunbound. quite dumb yet entertaining. and SOMEBODY keep winning me, becoming very proud. dunno who uh.

besides playing old games, i watch old show too. lol. duno if you guys have heard of this super old (older than me) de anime. it's call saint seiya aka warrior of zodiac. it have many different story and movies. many nice characters too! so overall quite nice and addictive uh. Most information can be found at wikipedia. search more if u wan to. haha. i usually watch at veoh or tudou. just search saint seiya will do. but tudou can be quite slow sometimes =/ those lazy yet interested, chat me in msn and i shall spoon feed you by giving you the link directly. haha. good uh?

and finally, Gold Saint of the SAGGITAURUS constellation ROCKS!!! not that 'Pai C'! LOL.

Besides that, anyone got lobang for Boys Over Flowers aka Hana Yori Dango VCD esp part 1 which is so difficult to find now. Watching in tudou is so slow. sian. tsk!

Looking forward for the upcoming FO7 BBQ on 4 oct and Class outing on 8 Oct. hehe. and somebody haven give me something uh. your deadline is nearing cos oct is coming. lol! and btw, oct of year 2008, not year 2222 hor! haha.

Note: underlined de is got LINK de if you haven realised. haha.

'I'm SERIOUSLY 'BED-RIDDEN'!

I just want to sleep through all the troubles.'

SOMEONE BRING ME OUT FOR A 'SHOP-TILL-DROP' DAY!